Love actually...

Hello! After the melancholic tone about death written by me last week, I think I should talk about something against it, love perhaps? It is stated in the dictionary that love is a noun which means a strong feeling of deep affection for the family members or a friend. Different people see love differently, so do I. For me, love does not only involves a guy and a girl but among the family and friends too.

Well, reading on how Mud tried to impress his first love reminded me of my own first love. Yes, I used to fall in love, my only love that I was obviously falling for.

I can hear my heart beating harder whenever I’m close to him
Or
How terribly nervous I was whenever I uttered words towards him
I can sense the grieve I had when I desperately missing him
And
I can recall the silly thing I’ve done in front of him
The gesture that actually showed how deeply I was in love with him

Before this, I never really developed my feeling toward guys because I think it is a waste of time and why on earth are you having a love relationship when you can’t even iron your own clothes properly. Well, this is especially for the primary students. For heaven sake, you haven’t mature yet and you already go out for a date at the public library. And it is at the public library! Don’t you have a better place to go? My goodness, Homo sapiens are weird.

I regarded them as weird because I always wondered why students have to have love affair at such a young age. Why? Why? You haven’t reach puberty yet! So, at first it was quit annoying to know that some of my friends did go into this type of relationship. Later, I entered the secondary school and it became a normal thing as many of my friends had this kind of relationship. Thus, I stop pondering on why they have to be an item.

Then, a boy came into my life when I was in form two; he was my long lost friend. We used to study at the same school but not in the same class during the primary years before he was transferred to another school.

He was in other class and we rarely talked to each other. Surprisingly in the following year when we were in form three, he entered my class. It was not a love at first sight and I felt nothing towards him at first.

I was sitting in the first row and he sat right behind me in the class. So, if there were any discussions we will gather as a group and I’ll turned to him for help. At that time, I was actually being gossiped to have a relationship with another student but I did not have any heartfelt on that student.

From time to time, we became closer and closer, a really good friend. I shared everything that I can with him and we even supported the same soccer team, Chelsea. It was the most contentment time of my life to spend times studying, chatting, or playing around with him. I never realize that I like him until I found that it was blissful whenever he talked to me, whenever he looked at me and whenever he teased me. In form four, I was certainly sure that I was in love with him as I can’t take my eyes and my mind off him since then. Sigh! For heaven sake, I was actually fallen in love with my bloody best friend.

Frankly speaking he is not a prince charming that every girl wishes for and maybe that was why I like him. I don’t like typical things or features that everyone looks for. Thus, I opt for something else, the same goes when it comes to music as I prefer Ahmad Jais more than Enrique Iglesias. Haha

Why can’t woman keep a distance of their hearts from the opposite sex? Yes, I fell in love with him, my best buddy. It will be always the girl who falls in love with their best buddy, maybe because if someone cares a lot about them, they melted easily.